Its so scary how fast time goes by.  I don’t like growing up.  I don’t like when my friends grow up and move away.  I don’t like how I only have 2 more years of undergrad left when it feels like my first day as a freshman in college was like a week ago.  Its just scary.  Change is something that I’ve always been afraid of and now more than ever change is occurring all around me.  In a couple of weeks I’ll be turning 20. 20??! It feels like yesterday that I was blowing out 16 candles on my cake.  It feels like yesterday that I was building forts in the woods with my sisters and playing with barbie dolls.  I’m not gonna lie, I miss it.  I miss family dinners every night after coming home from a long day of school and cheerleading or softball practice.  Now I barely see my older sister who lives in Rochester and will be starting her first teaching job as a music teacher in the fall.  My little sister is not little anymore and will be attending JWU as a freshman.  As for me, ill be starting my Junior year of college in a little over a week.  Scary is the only word that i can describe it all.  As much as I hate it though its a part of growing up and moving on in life.  I can’t take any moment for granted.